Happy New Year!! Welcome to 2009! An update!

Wow - time flies and the days are short as I am getting older! Last post - June 19, 2008 and here it is January 1, 2009!!

So much has happened these last 6 months, and I have definitely left you hanging since the last blog.

So - here it is - I guess back in May, after being off work for a little bit, had some time to relax and focus on my health, I was suspecting something else was going on with my body. So, Thursday night, June 5, I went out to the drugstore to buy a pregnancy test - well a two pack actually - one of many I have bought in the past! Well, I decided to wait until the morning of Friday, June 6 to test as I knew I hadn't missed my period yet and thought if this was going to show anything, I would have to test first thing in the morning. Low and behold, I tested, and Cory was on his way to work. Again, the disappointment came when I looked toward the end of the 3rd minute and the window was white - but wait... I did a double take - was it white?? I saw a very very faint pink line - or was it my eyes playing tricks on me?? I called Cory into the bathroom as he was about to leave for work and asked him if he could see anything in the window - he said that he could see a small faint line too - it wasn't my eyes! But he thought nothing of it and went on to work. So at this point, a part of me is thinking, I could be pregnant! But in the shock, confusion and excitement of it all, I also didn't want to get my hopes up too much...so I called the hotline number on the box! I spoke with a lady and asked if it was possible that this was just an evaporation line that I was seeing and she said that with the First Response tests, they do not have an evaporation line - if it is pink - you are pregnant!! Well, I was still in shock, couldn't believe this - so I emailed a couple friends - Karen, a girl I went to Diabetic Camp with, who has a child -and another friend from Ebay - Ashley. Karen thought from the beginning that I was pregnant - and still in denial, I emailed Ashley - and she told me it could be a faulty test. I agreed! So, I thought maybe I would wait until the following day to do the second test...NOT! I waited all of four hours and tested again around 12:30pm - only this test came in as a stronger positive! Still faint pink, but stronger! I wrote Cory on MSN and told him that I really thought we might be pregnant and he was in strong denial - after all - only 2 months previous we had been told that we had an 8 to 10% chance of conceiving, so how could this be?? Cory thought that these tests were faulty, so he said when he got home, we were going out to buy another test - this time, the one with words on it. In the meantime, being that I had only been on the pump a month and my blood sugars were still not in great control, I got on the phone with my pump nurse, Nancy for some reassurance as I was panicking - not that I may be pregnant - but if I am - my sugars, and the baby! Then I called my family doctor - and asked for a pregnancy bloodwork requisition right away, so I had Cory pick that up Friday before Noon.

Friday evening came, Cory arrived home from work - and we both went to Shopper's to look for a digital test, the one that says "PREGNANT" or "NOT PREGNANT". My fear was that if I hadn't had my period yet, and I was pregnant - that this test wouldn't register properly and Cory would definitely see, or think for that matter, that we weren't pregnant. I knew something weird was going on with my body, but I really needed confirmation too before getting too excited.

Saturday morning came, June 7, 2008 and I had no problems waking up as I was eager to do this test. Cory had already been up with the dog - I don't know, maybe he knew this test was happening too, so he couldn't sleep - who knows! I tested, and as the digital hour glass started to blink, I called Cory into the bathroom quickly. We stood quietly staring at this contraption sitting on the sink, wondering if our lives were going to change I guess!

I don't think it was even the full 3 minutes, but I will never forget it - the words "PREGNANT" came up on the screen - I stepped backwards, grabbed my chest and literally gasped out loud. It really hit me now - the panic, the shock, every emotion hit me all at once - I didn't know how to react! Cory still standing looking at the test, started laughing out loud - a laugh of disbelief I suppose, and he turned around, just grabbed me and we hugged each other - a long hug. We were both so shocked - wow - we are going to be parents!!

After that, Cory still insisted that he wouldn't believe it until the blood work came in - I guess he didn't want to get his hopes up either, but we went through scenarios together on how we were going to tell the parents. After all, I was really only 4 weeks along - quite early to be telling anyone. Should we wait until we go home to Newfoundland in the Summer? I would be 12 weeks then and we could tell them face to face. That would be great....well....NO - we can't wait! We just had to spill the beans right away!

We called my parents first - June 7, 2008 - I asked both of them to be on the phone with Cory and myself. I think it took a while for my Mom to catch on. She has been holding on to these baby shoes for a few years, and during my news of infertility, I had asked her to put them away - so she put them up and away in the closet - and some blankets and things that my Aunt Pat had made for my Mom's first grandchild. So, I didn't know how to say it, other than - "I was wondering if we would be able to borrow those shoes you have in the closet" - She didn't clue in....she said, "Cindy, what shoes?" I said, " you know, those sparkly shoes you have put up in the closet?" She paused - and said "Cindy......" and another long pause from both of them - she said "You're not pregnant!?" and we said yes - well, both of my parents were shrieking with excitement! And then we told them it was quite early but we couldn't hold it in...they were so thrilled.

Next we got to call Cory's parents. We got both of them on the phone - I guess they were wondering what was going on. Cory told them they were going to be grandparents yet again. I think they were in shock too - I could hear giggling on the other end of the phone. Definitely a great day in our household, to give such great news to everyone!

After that, we proceeded to tell our siblings in whatever way we could, whether by phone, or email - and everyone was so excited.

So, here I am 33wks 4 days pregnant - it is New Year's Day - and my back is a little sore from all this typing - so I am going to pause for now - not sure when I will make it back, but needed to share this great news! I will try to get back to update on the last 6 months. But I can't believe it - 33 more days and we are going to be parents. We are so excited.

See, there is a plan for me.... :)

Keeping my chin up!

Cindy